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I walked my best friend down the aisle today

after all the time we spent sprawled on my bedroom floor, a box of tissues wedged between us like a tireless mediator,

after all the time we spent guessing whether the two hours since his last SMS meant he was angry, or losing interest or, just an idiot,

after all the time we spent dividing his vices from his virtues, and deciding he was really no good at all,

after all the time we spent celebrating his smile after just deciding that his rightful place was a fiery pit in hell,

after all the time we spent wondering if this really was what you wanted,

after all the time we spent wishing he was, just a little more perfect,

after all the time I watched you slip away from me and further into his arms.

 

after all this time

I walked you down the aisle,

I walked my best friend down the aisle today,

I gave my best friend away today.

And I’m happy for her, stroes God, I am,

I just wish her being happy didn’t leave me so quite

alone

.

6 replies on “I walked my best friend down the aisle today”

bibi, i came across this per chance…your manner of expression has captivated me from the age of 8…you taught me the magic of words and the beauty of friendship…im not sure you’ll still remeber me, but once a upon a time u were my best friend..love R 

strange, i hit the reply button on yer comment and came upon an error. hence This comment, all fresh and new!

You are wise to never refuse a hug. They are the currency of the emotional world and quite strong against the dollar 🙂

Holden caulfield! a literary reference I know! Wait…let me google to be sure.
Indeed! I’ve even read the book and withstood the urge to do some assasinatin’ 😛

Blame it on the weather, or blame it on the fact that generally you can’t have one emotion without the other. Wait..there’s a quote from the movie The Shadowlands which comes to mind…

“Why love if losing hurts so much? I have no answers any more. Only the life I have lived. Twice in that life I’ve been given the choice: as a boy and as a man. The boy chose safety, the man chooses suffering. The pain now is part of the happiness then. That’s the deal.”

I think that’s the first movie to make me cry…and then I went to the next room, and my brother’s were watching Bill and Ted’s Amazing and adventure 😛

It all sort of balanced out.

Sham,

I won’t refuse a hug (much in need of one, actually).

But yea, toying with metaphor feeling very much like Holden Caulfield and thinking, “Don’t ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.”

No faith in human connections and all of that.

I blame it on the weather.

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